my discoveries

Thursday, April 10, 2008

feel so small


i'm happy that at times like these, God created something called friends that stand and stick by you. These people are willing to give their precious time to listen to you talk about drama, problems over and over and over again. Yet, they are still there listening to all your repetitive stories, messed up emotions, and most importantly, aren't tired or sick of it. Just simply being there.

i'm growing. i'm learning. i'm living. i'm struggling. i'm still so young. to be frank, i'm tired of pretending to be strong now. at times, i'm just not fine at all. so what? i'm not as strong as some people expect me to be. if that's what you've thought all this time, i'm sorry. I'm just showing you the person you want to see. it's fine to be weak and i don't care if you want to take advantage of it. cause for all i care, those that mean something to me won't do that, and those that do that to me, you won't mean a thing to me. there're things that i want to be, but am not yet. But as time goes, i will be that person i want to be. and til then, you got to have faith and believe in me. =)

we only part to meet again. only time will tell what the future holds. i need to grow on my own now. no more depending. this time, i will stick to it.

Tuesday, February 19, 2008

life is crazy

I need a bit more faith to make my present and future work. The past 3 days just been insane and pretty shitty. I just don't understand how certain people can just simply not care and leave the work to others. Well, it was never meant to be easy and those lazy people will end up nowhere in life. life is just so crazy and full of uncertainties. there's school, career, relationship, future,summer plan and all these things that at some point we come across hard decisions. It's not easy being our age or any age. In a few days, I'll be in paradise with my girls visiting me! For things that I have no control over now, I'll just let it be. I've done all I can, if it all fails, it's not my fault.

Saturday, February 16, 2008

Almost there

Last week of school before reading week. Pressure's on. Pray that I won't die before that.